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after you left I realized I can't be away from you because. you miss me you are my laugh you are my rainbow you are my twilight you are my morning sun you are my rain you are my home you are my world because you are my friend. wish you the best and God is good. God knows what wanted by his people. now you know why I like you? because you managed to make me rise from everything that made me fall into the dark hole and you managed to take me from that dark hole and stupidly I just realized this feeling this feeling exists because of you used to be present. this feeling exists because it's you this feeling exists because you've been willing to wait for me for four years This feeling exists because you make this feeling alive again because it was turned off by the perpetrator of the past four years is not a short time Time does have a million memories and events, events that will never happen and they happen to us. I love you even though you wouldn't have done o...

Aku lelah berjuang sendiri dihubungan ini. Setelah ada dia, Kamu berubah menjadi bisu Perasaan ini.. Jadi tidak karuan melihatmu menjauh tanpa sebab dan seakan disini aku yang salah. Rindu yang semakin hari semakin bertempuk telah meluap sudah berserakan di hati, ginjal empedu dan lambung. Disini sedang hujan. Pukul 00:31 dini hari, rindu ini meluap setiap malam harinya. Hujan membantuku mentralisir rindu ini, hati ini inginnya kamu terus dan kamu maunya dia. Jangan sia-siakan perjuanganku selama ini. Tiga tahun aku nunggu kepastian yang tidak jelas kemana arahnya, sekarang arah kita sudah satu kembali di pisah oleh arah yang lain. Kamu tau bagaimana perjuanganku menunggumu selama itu? Jika dituliskan disini mungkin satu juta kata tidak akan terselesaikan, dan kamu dengan mudahnya tergoda oleh masalalumu itu.  Aku berharap hujan membawa rindu ini yang telah meluap setiap malamnya.  Lalu esok pagi datang bersama pelangi yang indah, yaa.. Pelangi indah walau hanya se...

Today we do not exchange news Are you busy or am I too diligent to wait for you? You must know which priorities are not. I don't need to tell you anymore, you already know which one you think is important in your life. what am I? I'm not something you can just use and throw away when you're bored. Am I important or not? If I don't matter why did you start this relationship and it's as if I wanted it from the start. Continue or end? This relationship started huh? This relationship that you want, doesn't mean I don't love you but your attitude makes me doubt if you love me. This relationship is in your direction, I will not force you to go or vice versa. I will accept Because I think making you happy is number one in my life. If you get bored just say so. I'll fix my attitude that you don't like or whatever. But if you're bored because there's something more interesting than me it's just a lie. It's okay I know you want that...

I haven't had time to express this feeling and you've turned mute. But if you want it like that, what can I do? Because in this relationship the center is in you, you are the one who directs where you want to go. Back again If you want to go please I'm not forcing you. Because this relationship never existed, or am I making it up? Message from me You take good care of yourself Don't stay up late and eat instant noodles, it's not good for your health. And. Don't break her heart that you now choose. Just me. I'm here. Just pray that you are happy with your current choice Greetings from me. -ca-

Why have I had high expectations all this time? even though I know you will not return, but I continue to hope in the empty hope that was given by you a week ago and even from three years ago. I just realized that I'm not the only house that you stop. Thank you for stopping by and being a guest, not a guest. but what difference does it make if the guest and the innkeeper he will come back as he pleases and go as he pleases like you and always will. thank you for making this lonely house cheerful, the quiet one filled with laughter, the dark one illuminated by your light, what was once only one color has now turned into a thousand colors and it's all temporary, now your house that you've been in is back to being lonely, silent and dark even I have transformed into a lonely pile. No problem, Maybe that's the process. I am grateful that I have found a great person who makes silence into laughter and then back to loneliness. Is that your talent? No problem I can...

I've stopped looking for happiness because happiness is basically it's from you I, always hope you'll be back like before always chat with me and say "I'm on the road looking for something to eat, okay, I'll chat later" I always miss being called brother even though you are older haha. I miss those words I miss when we eat together, even though you're in a different place, you're in your boarding house, I'm in my room hehe. I miss you why do you prefer to leave without a word? I'm human humans who need answers to the thousand questions that you gave after you left I've been trying to guess with my answer if you already have another house. Besides me. before meeting me. I should be honest so that I don't expect more and worse hope on empty hopes. Honestly, it's bitter, I know but if you were honest at the start none of this would have happened. remember, this heart is always for you, only for you, and still for you ev...

If God allowed me to have you, God would have made it happen long ago. But God willed otherwise that I should hope without having you. -ca-

Sometimes we can't achieve everything Sometimes we can't have everything Just like you. -ca-