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I've stopped looking for happiness
because happiness is basically
it's from you

I,
always hope
you'll be back like before
always chat with me and say "I'm on the road looking for something to eat, okay, I'll chat later"
I always miss being called brother even though you are older haha.

I miss those words
I miss when we
eat together, even though you're in a different place, you're in your boarding house, I'm in my room hehe.

I miss you
why do you prefer to leave without a word?
I'm human
humans who need answers to the thousand questions that you gave after you left

I've been trying to guess with my answer
if you already have another house.
Besides me.
before meeting me.

I should be honest so that I don't expect more and worse hope on empty hopes.

Honestly, it's bitter, I know
but if you were honest at the start none of this would have happened.
remember, this heart is always for you, only for you, and still for you even though you don't know.

but I always think positive about you
I always monologue myself when I think of you "maybe he is working or maybe studying" but I know you are a wealthy person, do you want to show that you can stand alone without the help of your parents, basically whatever your goal is, it must be good and I still support it.

you come back soon
I miss you, you always ask your mom how you are before me
I miss everything about you

come back soon
I don't know how many times I've written that word
don't make me tired will wait for you
if it's true that you already have a house besides me, just say I won't be angry. because basically, I have no right to be angry. I realized I'm nobody
I know myself.


Greetings dear, I miss coming back soon yes I will wait for you even if it's a long time because that's all I can do.

-ca-

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