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Hello annyeonghaseo, today is the 17th of November 2021 at 12:10 pm. I just remembered now so I once prayed to God, the prayer is like "God, bring him if he's good, keep him away if he's not good".

I'm aware now, very aware. That he is not the best for me. He was a guest who came briefly to give color to the cave's life. My prayers were answered and God heard. And as a result, he walked away from me for no reason.

At first, I still thought about what was wrong with me, was it because I was ugly and kept him away? Or because there is something else? Or do you have a new girlfriend? For a week That's all I have in my head.

Until finally I dared to chat with him first like this "x I want to say, before you have not made peace with your past, you will continue to hurt anyone who loves you x. Even though in your mouth you always say 'it has nothing to do with the past', it's a lie. Mouth and heart sometimes don't match x, hehe, thank you for wanting to be my friend, you're kind. Sorry to bother you."

Why do I still think that he can't forget his past? Because every time we talk on the phone, chat or meet in person, we always talk about the problem. Ah, maybe there's no topic to talk about his past.

I don't regret knowing him at all, he's such a good kid. He's polite, he's funny, sometimes weird. Hahaha until ghosts become our topic. How absurd that is.

It's okay for him to go maybe because he's already bored with me. Because my life is straight, there's no problem. So he's bored, maybe.

The point is that God heard my prayers and God loves me and shows that he is not a good person according to God. OK, it's okay a good day will come. And now I have to focus on what I'm doing. Help my mom, write a blogger, and prepare for college.

Ok bye see u

Thanks for reading

Look, God is always by your side, he's there when you need or don't need him. Depends on you. God is good.

Have a good day

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