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Still about him five years ago

 Still about him five years ago 

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Our relationship was never clear from the beginning until we finally fell in love with each other. Never tell each other after each other's feelings and five years we can't accept that we really can't be together. 

The first week of November, I chatted with him again. The person I knew five years ago, the person who was always kind when he was around. People who are always there when I need them. People who always accept the cave under any circumstances. We can say that we have known five years like we know each other or not. Because both are closed, both never want to know. Equally vague and too grey. 

I don't know how to describe this relationship. We're friends. But you can also say that they are not friends. They say they know each other, they don't, but I know that. we were never us from the start. We who from the beginning always avoid talking about the relationship of two people who are put together because we can't be one or we don't want to be one?. 

Because we never wanted that. But we are more than that. Are you confused? You'll never find a relationship like this cave. Especially when I'm running. I'm not dating him, but I can't date anyone else. Because I have him. On the other hand, he doesn't want to date me, but he can't date anyone else. Because he belongs to the cave. But on the one hand, this relationship harms both of us a lot. No one wants to be honest with each other about their feelings.

The point is no one wants to be honest with each other. So, I don't know where to take this relationship. We always say "just do it first" but until when? This is not an inter-religious relationship. This is a relationship that can't be described, even if I did describe it you would be confused and amazed. what is this person writing? What kind of relationship is this guy talking about? Don't you guys, I'm just confused, I don't know what I am with him. What is clear is that we both know that we have the same without having to have. I'm sick of talking about him and this relationship. I have a lot on my blog about him. From the beginning I started a blog until now, if I want to make other people's stories, it's hard to stop this relationship. Hey, this isn't a relationship. What is it called?

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