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message for someone who hurt me.

 pesan untuk seseorang yang menyakitiku. 



this is the last message for you. You are the greatest person I have ever known. You are a brave man, a man full of responsibility.

I have never met and know someone like you before. only you are special and different from others.

maybe if I knew you from the first I could take your heart, but you first get to know my friend. what can I do I have to let you go?

feelings no one knows how feelings are unmanageable. even though forgetting you is one of managing my feelings I have to forget you for the sake of my friend and more importantly for me.

The feeling is like the wind as it pleases it blows, at will, it approaches humans on earth. maybe, I can't describe the feeling like the wind because the value of a feeling is priceless and very precious.

of course, this feeling from 2020 until now is very precious and sincere. I am sincere but always neglected.

I love you like I lost the real me. because of all the ways and all the means, I tried to get to you and none of it worked.

that way I get out of my comfort zone and until I forget who I am.

it means you are very precious to me.

until three days ago I realized, realized it was all in vain. all those ways are meaningless to get you.

but I'm glad to know you. I'm glad you were there even though I was forced to reply to my messages that looked annoying.

You know?, every time I want to go to sleep I always remember the look that night when we went around the city of Depok-Jakarta.

I always remember.

I hope you don't remember because all you remember is him, my friend.

I just want to give advice, don't be too nice to everyone. That person can be misunderstood if not strong-hearted like me. 





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