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 Rabu, 01 September 2021 




It's really hard to be productive anymore :'(


It's really hard to be productive anymore, I feel like my moody keeps coming back when I feel like this, then I feel like that. I swear, covid does not have an external impact on life, but internally as well. My mentality has been hit, wow, during a pandemic like this, I've been trying hard to do the best for myself and the environment. Before going to the crowd, you have to go to yourself first.


But it's still hard for me, I don't know myself, why I'm so on to something later, then it's off again, just like that until the PPKM is finished ️ until I start writing a blog again, it's bad, it's like people don't have a passion for life. Btw, before I typed on my laptop I wrote in an oath book I haven't written in a book in a very long time.


Maybe... I haven't written in a book in a year and you know my writing is like chicken claws again. Anyway, if you don't practice writing every day, it will never be neat. School is also at home. Learning from laptops and cellphones, I rarely write at least only one or two subjects like that. Until sometimes, I miss my productive self, I don't delay when I do anything.


I forget how to be productive. I've tried to buy a book that says it's good but I'm too lazy to read the book. I'm not in the mood to read the book again. Yes, I know, I know that people have their ups and downs too. But I've been down for a very long time!! I swear teach me how to be productive again, man.

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