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I will keep my dream

 




Today I'm not in the mood, I just want to sleep. This morning I felt insecure and overthinking I was on mode. I feel dizzy, nauseous, have no appetite, the food tastes like that and it's a shame I googled it because of stomach problems.


My stomach acid rises, my chest feels tight, my mouth is bitter. And as a result I sleep from 12 to 3 pm.


The question is why am I dizzy and until my stomach acid rises?


Because I think and I see my friends in college. Meanwhile, I just terminated my contract from my workplace.


I really feel insecure my mind is everywhere and as a result my stomach acid rises!


I hate my self


Why do I always torture myself by looking at the things that make me tormented


It's really sad that I really want to study abroad, I just don't know what the first step should be. What should I do I don't know?!


 


Yes, I really want to study abroad with a full scholarship, amen

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