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Takbiran nighttime.


 




The last time I saw you was that night. And finally, we chat the day after. Maybe I'm too lazy, I'm too confident, I'm too sensitive. After all, who doesn't feel good when suddenly invited to go out at night, at night takbiran anyway.


He is the one who tells the story of his childhood until now. Ahh, maybe it's just me, that's baperrrrrrrrr yatuhan... I hope I don't want to feel like falling in love again, just yesterday I left.


After waiting for a few years, he does have good intentions, it's just that the cave has no taste. Maybe it's because I've been waiting so long. I moved on for a month or so but sometimes I still remember it.


Ettt, first, I'm going to tell you which one is it,


The first takbiran night, the five-year-old, it's fine. The point is, I've moved in now, even though I haven't started it yet, I've only walked once, I'M BAPER GOODNESS!!!!!!


I chatted with him after that night about how come he didn't reply even though he was online but he didn't reply. Then, not long ago, I met my friends, I met a friend of mine who happened to be someone from my friend. Understand?


So let's just call it person X, now that X is a friend of my school friend.


That's how I went with my friends to the mall to look for gifts for my teacher. That's it, he told me about his new crush, right, he gave him a look at the chat, so my friend said he hasn't replied since yesterday morning.


It turns out that in the chat, my new friend's crush is there, imagine being jealous or not. Others can reply, I can't reply to chat, gosh, oh well. I guess I'm too sensitive. He just invited me to play with the cave to the heart.


Then there I started to be in a bad mood I tried to contain my bad mood so I wouldn't cry when I got together I was in a bad mood, oh my god. In the end, we moved to the mall to look for something else.


This friend of mine is still asking and talking about his crush, I've disbanded there. After the second mall and arriving at the third mall, I was a bit away from my friends to neutralize my bad mood, I'm not mature, I swear.


But after taking it out, I'm not annoyed, my bad mood is a bit gone. And I'm so proud of myself because it's so strong to resist that feeling. Make a difference between playing time and bad mood.


I put out my bad mood by crying on my motorbike when I moved to another mall. Well, let no one know that.


And now the point is I don't want to be close to anyone first because yes it's afraid to fall in love alone again and again.


At first, I didn't want to remember this anymore because I didn't want to. Then suddenly I heard a love and secret song from kak Yura. Well, it's finally like this :)

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