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moody

the day after yesterday, Thursday, February eleventh, I was working on a simdig practice exam (digital simulation) when you weren't in the mood, did you force yourself to do activities or follow your mood? I usually follow my mood, because it's hard to be active or productive when my heart and mind are not in the same direction.

 When I force activities or be productive, the results of my work are not productive and people around me see me as a lazy and easily angry person. Yes, it's like that, the default is to finish quickly, and finally, the results are bad.

Indeed, sometimes the mood can not be predicted when it will come. Everyone can be affected at that time. sometimes the mood destroys the day that was planned from last night that should have been productive, it just fell apart.

I'm tired of following the mood, I'm tired of crying, it's not clear the point is sensitive. You can't just let it go, you have to talk to it, but if you talk to it, it's also lazy HAHAHAHA

 rich yesterday, yesterday was 40 days uncle I died at home busy many brothers came. I recite the Koran like that, I'm the only one who doesn't leave the room, I stay in the room and finally I get to my room. "Icha why the hell?" blabla and others'

My mother said, "It's normal when the mood goes down." Yes, my mother is very debest, I swear. After all, if you're not in the mood, the default is lazy to talk, Sensi is not invited to talk, Sensi is just confused, isn't it.

I don't want to be like that, it's just that it's hard when I'm not in the mood to be rich as usual. to say a lot is very difficult.


11/02/21
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