R

I hope one day I can study in Seoul, amen.

hello.. why does it feel like sunset is taking so long.. now I'm waiting for the Maghrib call to prayer because I'm fasting to replace last year's Ramadan debt. I want to explain that this bad feeling is very disturbing it makes today's mood so flat.

I still want to talk about him, let's just call him R. R's attitude has changed, I don't know what's wrong with me. I understand why he's busy R exam R playing I understand you :). without informing the cave beforehand. Who am I really in his life? but, why does it feel like this heart already has him?

am I not selfish? I want him to be mine. I want him to look at me. though he had another life, another routine. remember nisa, you're just a friend, you're nobody nisa, you're just a friend.

Now I realize that hoping that humans intentionally make us hurt ourselves. Now I just want to be stupid, I want people to be close to me, I don't want anyone to be close, the point is I don't want to hope anymore, it's okay not to have a boyfriend. But sometimes I want to date. who likes loneliness?

I don't like crowded places but I don't like quiet. The point is there must be one thing that does not make this self not lonely. not alone is the point.

This feeling doesn't mean that I haven't eaten all day and I don't want to do anything. just annoying. I don't like having this kind of restless feeling that shouldn't exist. The one who created it yourself, Nisa, has stopped hoping that's why it's the same with R.

brain says so. My heart is different, soft, I want to be loved. I don't know, I don't understand myself.

You're great. R for making me like this, even though it's not finished yet, the effect is great :). Maybe it's time I realized myself.