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Hola, still with Nisa, I hope you're not bored, around Asr time when I was about to pray Asr, I remembered an incident that made me feel humiliated, slandered. and your parents don't defend you when you're not wrong and instead stay silent.

doesn't it hurt? it hurts so bad they don't seem to care. every time I remember it feels like my chest is tight, tears keep falling even though I don't want to cry and every time I remember that incident it hurts like my heart is being stabbed.

It's not good to hate it in your heart, but just imagine that you slandered your brother, your situation is still sick, plus your parents don't believe in you and don't defend you. just imagine you all in the position of the cave. For months and years, the incident has never been forgotten in my brain in my memory.

Every time I learn to forget the incident, evil thoughts keep coming. even though my heart wants to sincerely forget the incident but it's very difficult. I know maybe this is a sincere process of forgetting the incident. it's okay nisa it's okay you can you are strong.

I don't want to talk about it on the blog but I think if I put all of this out in writing it will slowly disappear in my brain and my memory. Bismillah sincerely


I think later I will learn to write blogs in English. I hope the blog doesn't scold me if I'm the wrong HAHAHA HAHAHA, it's okay, it's just that if something goes wrong, please correct it, guys.


self-reminder
keep being yourself, don't complain a lot, pray at home, improve relationships with family, stay good people to fellow human beings.

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