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dream big, pray bigger.

hello, I'm back with me, nisa, yes, it's been a long time since I wrote. In February this year, Masha Allah, I have a very busy schedule, I'm just like an artist, hahaha. Yes, it's tight with today's practice exam schedule for practice exam videos + study for tomorrow's exam and so on until tomorrow is the last chemistry practice exam, please pray for me that my exam will go smoothly tomorrow Amen

And now I'm just about to write again. I want to tell you a little story about what I'm going through I'm confused about where to start the story. because it concerns my future see. So from the beginning, I was insecure when I saw my friends join, even the list of names was included in the eligible snmptn students while I didn't participate, the list or even my name was not included in the eligible students.

You know what I feel, soo, I must be sad, I cry, I'm grumpy, I'm in a bad mood again. I don't think there's any spirit to live a lebayy life, but the truth is that's how it is. I am insecure, I am ashamed, I feel completely useless. After a week, I'm like a lost person who worries about the future.

Finally, I bowed down to God, I confided with God, I took out everything that was a burden in my heart and mind. do you think after that I'm fine? no guys. I'm calm for a moment. I finally talked to my little friend. Yes, that's how I vent, I'll tell you, I let out all my feelings he understood because he had experienced it too.

I finally thought I couldn't continue like this, I had to change. I'm the first child when I'm weak. The shoulders of the first child can't be weak, they have to be strong, they have to be resilient, they can't cry. After contemplating and struggling with chaotic thoughts, I turned insecurity into motivation. I have to be MORE than my friends. I have to be proud of my parents and my brothers and sisters.

continue this, yes, I have a dream from junior high school that is I want to study abroad, yes abroad. I like Germany. why german? because the German state produces people who are cool, great, intelligent even the government and education systems are good. You guys just search on google for what Germany is like, I want to continue my story because hehehe.

After struggling with my thoughts for a long time, I opened my old ideas, I didn't want to make my high school dreams come true. is it impossible? yes very. I come from a simple family. very very simple. I finally thought about what I should do so that I could study abroad. I was confused, I didn't know what kind of info was there about and how to study abroad.

finally, I pray to Allah, I ask Allah, I carry out all the obligations and sunnah, namely, I pray Duha + Alwaqiah, it has only been running for two days, Allah has shown the way, Allah has given instructions for that. you know what? I got information on scholarships to Germany!!!! you imagine. although it is not certain that Allah has given instructions and answered my prayer, I am very happy.

From there I became more and more sure and believed that God was always there and always answered every prayer of his people. Do you know? I got information about studying abroad, not just in Germany, but in almost all countries, my friends provide this information. Thank God, Allah not only answered my prayer but expanded my prayer.

I pray that I will be accepted in the best country, in the best university, amen.

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