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Yesterday, I was not confident in myself, it was inherently inferior to see people registering for PTN here and there, even though they didn't necessarily get accepted to the university they wanted.

I finally contemplated, introspecting myself again, why can I feel like this, what is wrong with me, I am inherently shy, inferior, or afraid. Turns out I had an incident that made me down for the past two years.

so it's still rich, so it's still left behind, it's still not completely separated from my brain, what a terrible incident I think is. when you have a bad incident or bad experience like mine, surely when you're dumbfounded it crosses your brain. So it makes you afraid to do new things.

like for example in my brain: will he be like this or not, if I speak up about something, for example, or he will be angry or not because I'm not waiting for that person. It's like a small thing but it can make you go back in the future.

That's a disease, in my opinion, now if you've experienced this or haven't, don't let it happen. In my opinion, what you should do is.

you accept that.

You let go of your mind and follow where your mind goes. to what extent? it's okay to cry. I'm happy to cry as long as after crying you get up, you say to yourself "I can get past this all" Thinking about other people's feelings but not thinking about yourself is called self-torture, and don't love yourself.

It's okay for this time to be selfish first, love yourself first, keep yourself healthy from that wound. just welcome to my paradise asekkk HAHAHAHAH

Oooiyya friends, loyal readers of my blog, even though there are only a few readers, it's okay. pray for me, I'm in the process of reaching my dream, may Allah make everything easy for me. Amen.



stay healthy you guys. warm greetings from icha :)

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